Reporting for Deployment
The first and only time I did mushrooms was at 16 with some friends in the Pasadena hills. Four of us, at Will’s house.
Will’s mom was a witch. She held coven gatherings in her backyard within a sacred circle of stones. I was told not to walk through it. I walked through it.
We eventually ventured into the neighborhood, talked to some trees, watched grass grow, etc. We heard music and followed it to a laser etched horizon. It took some sitting and staring to determine that there were actual lasers and Pink Floyd was playing The Rose Bowl. April of ‘94, the one night I took shrooms. I may have experienced heaven too early.
Coming down off acid, our foursome went to see Natural Born Killers in the theatre that summer. I may have become the demon. I may also be an over eager reporter. Do not listen to anything I say.
There is little data on the effects LSD has on the developing human brain. Having sat in an Archimedes listening vessel at 17, tripping, this bipolar woman at 41, advises caution with hallucinogens. The ability to hear all sound, in one wondrous focal point can altar ones perspective indefinitely. Inducing changes in my brain chemistry, many times, at an important stage of its development, may have contributed to lifelong biochemical abnormalities.
However, if you have never known God, it is a temporary method. Loving awareness and speaking truth is reportedly more reliable.
Either way, I cannot recommend the San Francisco Exploratorium more highly. I don’t think it’s possible to leave there without an appreciation of humanity’s quest to understand creation.
Altar Awareness
I desire - human
I am my desire - suffering
I live aside desire - tangerines
